This year though, I don't think I'm going to put any goals on my blog either. I mean, I could write about how I should eat healthier, but really, I'm not sure I desire that enough to actually eat any healthier. I could write about how I want to save money, but that vague goal is worthless unless I put a dollar amount with it, and as we know it's not polite to talk about money. (even though I seem to constantly complain about being poor....sorry fools)
I will say however, something that I would like to accomplish this year is going to be awesome at my major. I haven't really talked very much about my new school experience since I got my new major (Technology and Engineering Education) but I would like you all to know that I love it, so much. And after my interview last week, I did officially make it in. (there is apparently an entrance process) It's like I go to school now and everything we learn I think is fascinating. Pretty much everyone in my major is awesome and I think that we all mesh rather well. I love the environment, I love the subject matter, and I am getting closer to being sold on the idea of being a teacher. Somedays I'm 100%, and somedays I think I would rather work as a Graphic Designer. But we shall see I guess. Whatever I decide to do I would like to be good at it though.
It's such an unusual sensation, that now in class we do things that I think are really interesting, and that I want to be the best at. And sometimes I am. And I love it. I'm not really someone who's ever been the best at anything, I can think of exactly one time in highschool that a teacher ever told me my work was fantasticly good, I've always just kind of been sort of average. My own fault yes, but it never really bothered me. My work was good and I usually put a fair amount of effort into it, it was just never the best. But now that's something I want, and I can't tell you how fun it is to strive for that. How good it feels to look at your work and be proud of it.
So I guess I did end up writing about a goal I have. Does it sound arrogant? I hope not. Doing really good work just feels good, and sometimes being the best is great.
Ah, what the heck. Writing this post has given me some goal ideas.
1. Find the Imposter. Sometimes I'm tempted to add her on facebook but I will settle for a sighting without the friendship because I worry about if she found my blog and read all the things I write about her. I suppose if she googled herself my blog would be the first thing to come up though anyway...
2. Write on my blog sometimes. And not just crap as I've been doing lately. I feel like I used to be better at this, but now the only readers I have are the poor souls who got suckered in when I actually wrote about interesting things and have lost so much brain matter reading my posts, they don't know that they should leave.
3. That's about it for now.




